April 25, 2010

start again in new perspective

setelah lebih kurang setahun aku tinggalkn bnde alah nih..
terasa rindu menjenguk semula blog yg telah ditulis oleh sorang budak naive and not to be said*bodoh* coz she wrote what came in her mind.
setelah menyedari budak itu adalah aku..so,aku ingin memulakan semula tp dlm account yg sme coz aku nk tgk blk satu hari nnt yg mna aku akn ketawa membaca post2 itu semula.i just want to start it all over again dgn cara yg aku inginkn n without hyporitycally and aware that.walaupn kdg2 org yg bce x fhm stu bnde pn ape yg aku tulis...haha!!biaselah..aku tulis utk aku sndiri..thats y its honest intuition..very honest one maaa..but writing this feels like somebody is reading ang hearing my goods and bads of my life..it feels calm and relieve...

dh rrr...boring ckp psl bnd nih lg...NEXT!!

I wanna be a new person with new perpective and moral awareness..
though ppl saying i'm innocent..who cares..yes i am!!!
but not all the time.i'm just being naive when i thnk i shouldnt do that which ppl think its okay to do *that.
just like yestrday when my frens talking bout minyak lintah!!wth is it??
i know  whut it is..
but sorg drpd diorg farah (bkn nme sbnr) tny kt sorg minah nih..nmenyer..alia(bkn nm sbnr)

farah:alia..ko taw pe mnyk lintah??
alia:tak..xtau..pe??
farah:google..
alia:alah...
farah:tny abg kaw...
fatin:alia..jgn tny abg kaw!!
aina:alia..tny jew...
fatin:JGN!!!!
aina:fatin inesen....
fatin:ske hati kaw lah nk tny ke x...tp think twice!!
farah:tny jew...
alia:abg aku dh tdo....

conversation ni semsa tgh skyping..

so...in this situation...i think maybe i'm inesen..but..kesian kot kt alia..nnt sye yg malu tny kt abg dye...x kesahla tu abg dye...tp sbg prmpuan...jge r maruah sket..nk tny lelaki psl tu..pdhl suma ni bru je melangkah ke usia 18.ntahlah....tu pandangan aku..aku nk brfikiran trbuka..tp adkah pd topik2 mcm ni klau kte menerimanye bru dkatakan brfikiran trbuka???everything membincangkn about porn or sensitive issue..bleh dikatakan brfikiran trbuka???is that it???i thought berfikiran terbuka is brpndngan jauh n menerima pndngn org lain utk kbaikn diri..negara..bla..bla..bla..
hish!!!

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